Last time I tortured myself

As we lay in mid afternoon exhaustion
He watched as I gently stole a kiss…several actually
A sneak attack of elephantine stealth
He smiled with guilty tears in his big eyes
aware of his lies and broke promise

I wish we had never met, not at that exact moment
At that exact moment I wish we’d never part
I wish he was strong enough to stay
I wish the tears were for stubbed toes
than broke heart